Today was a run day but after Tuesday's 5k, we decided to drop the distance down a little and rest our (my) legs. It was essentially the 5k run from Tuesday, but in reverse, and without the loop of les halls. We went to the chateau, up the Boulevard, round the parc, cut back to town and up the side of Bosquet, then down into Hédas. When we got to the playground, Iain asked how I was doing and if I wanted to go home but with only around 3.5k on the GPS, I said we should head on to Marca and back up to Grammont. The hills from Hédas to the the restaurants at l'Etna etc were absolutely brutal but it was a good intense finish and we completed 4.5k. I was pleased.
Had lunch and Iain had lots of work things on plus french homework and another lesson. Suddenly, I felt myself looking down the barrel of a very long time period of trying to keep William entertained. Understandably, he's become more and more in need of directed and supported play, rather than his usual wee play bubble and I'm finding this increasingly difficult. We did some more of our Cold War Steve artwork, but William's concentration lasted about 30mins, then I was all out of ideas and energy. These afternoons can feel very long, and sometimes I just don't have it in me to come up with, or play games. By dinner time I was even in tears. I am just so bored and over the repetitiveness of these days. A schedule is good, but Groundhog Days are bad. In fact, they're awful. I was talking about it with Iain and explained how I felt with him still working, that he had legitimate reasons for tapping out and locking himself downstairs, and talking with other adults, but I am the constant with William and I don't really have any decent reason for not being with him, and then I feel guilty for sneaking away for unimportant stuff. We talked about how we need to try and manage this but its just such a strange situation to be in that we don't really know to fix it. Deffo got our eyes on the 11th May. Which reminds me, we've had an email from William's school asking if he will be returning on the 12th. I've asked what the other families are doing, and Iain and I have talked about it at length, and have decided that no, for the moment, we will keep him home and then reassess after the first week. But hopefully that first week will see a bit of a change in terms of where we can go in the day time which will definitely make life more bearable.
Lorna :-]
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